I've been thinking a lot lately about the fact that I can never stay at something for too long. I have never had a job more than a year, I haven't lived in the same place for more than months at a time the last 4 years, I've started and ended school 3 times...etc. I think a lot of it has to do with my fear of settling. So many people say "do things while you're still young." blah blah blah. It's like growing older means being stuck.
If I could afford it I would grab my dog, camera, and some food and hit the road. I think I would head North. Alaska seems to be calling my name. I'm not happy here and I need a drastic change. I want to get lost in the wilderness. Become one with my surroundings. I don't want to stand still anymore. I only wish I had the courage and the means to follow my heart. People used to be able to travel with nothing but a few dollars in their pocket and a pack filled with their needed belongings. These days it costs hundreds, if not thousands of dollars in order to get away. Unless you want to try to be homeless for awhile. As much as I want to experience living on the streets to gain perspective it's not something I see myself actually being able to do. UGH! I need to figure my life out or I swear I might go insane. And I've tried to get out of here so many times. When will it be my turn? Maybe I'm not trying hard enough...
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